5 Kilometers Per Hour

"They say it travels at five kilometers per hour." she said.

He then looked at her with eyes wide opened, but not so obvious from her view. 

"It's going to the Minamitane launch facility." she continued, 

"Looks like there'll be a launch this year. First time in a while."

As the gigantic semi-trailer truck slowly passed by them, he then added 

"Yeah. It's supposed to go to the far reaches of the solar system."

"No matter how many years it takes..."

- A scene from the second arc of 5 Centimeters Per Second

As the year of the dragon ends tonight, I decided to check out what my facebook has to show me about my top 20 moments (life events, highlighted posts and popular stories) of this year. Turns out it was just full of sht and actually missed out my dramatic bed time story of this year. Sigh, fb y u dunno? 

Why is this post called 5 kilometers per hour, is not only is a reference to my fav movie 5 Centimeter Per Second. But also because during the whole year, life felt very slow and sometimes the things you faced or you're facing now can be done with. 5 km/h is indeed very slow, but eventually everyone will reach the finish line.

No matter how many years it takes.

There goes a Chinese belief that when a child of a (insert any Chinese animal zodiac) goes into the same Chinese animal zodiac year. It's usually bad luck. And me being a dragon in this year of the dragon. Boy did I have one heck of a roller coaster ride.

First and foremost, I am really grateful to God that I've finally finished my studies. Away with the books and useless theories that are rarely applied in life. I've always hated studying, but nonetheless I learn a lot from my course. If there're a few things I learn from Mass Communication and Marketing, it's 

1. Marketing taught me how to make people buy the things they don't need.
2. People tend to believe things online without doing research.
3. The media is a powerful double edge sword.
4. People are really taking media for granted. Btches pls, if we didn't exist you won't be able to watch your favourite tv shows and movies.

Overall, people are generally stupid. 

To my friends who are struggling with their academic performance, I believe in you. Life's a constant struggle, so stay strong and "burn" all the exam papers enemies that are to come. No matter how many years it takes.

Secondly, I also went through the test of friendship with many people. And I learned that the reason why I prefer to be quiet most of the time is not because I'm too lazy to say anything, it's because my tongue is also like a poison barb. The moment someone say anything contradicting or something that does not contribute to a potential meaningful discussion to learn, or something that they say they will do it but never came to be for 3 times in a row and giving lame excuses, I shoot them indirectly with or without realizing it.  

To those who were hurt by my statements before intentionally, I'M REALLY SORRY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART...that you're too egoistically stupid to cover up your lack of intelligence and honesty. I tried being really nice to tolerate their actions, but really sometimes they need a slap in their face to realize their bad habit and fix it.

Nobody likes losing friends of course, been there done that. I'm over that phase years ago, so to be honest I'm not sad to lose someone who cannot put up with me (not implying that I have a serious attitude problem btw haha), there's no reason to. However, to end a friendship like that is still sad. And to my former right hand, I prolly kinda screwed up the final cherry tree chapter and I apologized for the really mean things I said, but you should know why I did that because of your repeated bad habits. Not really sure if you read that msg in Skype or not, I dunno about you but I feel more peaceful now. So yeah, the show must go on.

No matter how many years it takes.

And lastly, about my third fall from the tree and being haunted by it. Actually, there is a third and final sequel to sum up this trilogy cherry tree story. And it's so mind blowing that if I could I would really want to blog about it but...hmm...I dunno, felt like it actually hasn't ended yet or I'm pretty sure it already did. Anyway All I can tell you guise and girls is that things didn't work out, the truth was also revealed, and I've yet to receive a sincere apology from the both of them in person. If you want to know the full details, pm me and I shall tell you the final chapter.

Back to the dialogue at the start of this post, the reason why the male character had his eyes wide opened (like a sudden realization moment) was because when he was with his first love. She said something similar which is, 

"They say it's five centimeters per second." she said.

Puzzled, the boy asked "Huh? What is?"

She then answered
"The speed at which cherry blossoms fall. It's five centimeters per second."

They say that, everyone struggle the most to get over their first relationship. But I beg to differ, actually in fact it is their first love (which happens to be their first relationship most of the time) that everyone struggle the most to get over with. I can understand that very well, since she was the one that I truly loved the most among the three maidens with their ever glowing aura including her. I actually really hoped for a sweet good ending for this end of the year, I have written wonderful scripts for several occasions. But unfortunately, she had written several different ideas to the script as well. Which left a bitter mark on the ending. 

Just like this one.

Despite the bitter ending, it's still a better love story than twirite.

And with the curtains closed, there's no more reason to stay on the stage anymore.

Tears with no cheers and a single rose, one must still take a bow and exit the door.

For the lessons learn from this act, I shall be firm as an anchor and face the coming war.

No matter how many years it takes.

The Dragon

I wonder how many times has it been,

That I've imagined myself as death, destroyer of worlds,

Summoning suffer and pain while my face grins,

With my heart ever so joyous and keen.

An imagination of a child? No, it is not.

It's how everyone's head feels when it's hot,

Especially when you feel like punching your boss's face,

Or being abused for no reason from that horrible place,

Or when your patience just snapped releasing the rage.

Should I be like the fire?

The flame that hungrily consume everything in its path,

I may be slow in moving but I am full of wrath,

Especially when they scream in fear so intense,

Fueling me up scorching the heat bringing the menace, 

Like me, some men just want to watch the world burn.

Or should I be like the water?

The flood that rains down souvenirs of sadness of mine,

I may not be threatening at first but in time,

They shall be drenched in depression then drown in the abyss,

Icing their hearts with the frost of kiss,

Leaving them cold and restless makes me bliss.

Or maybe I should be like the wind?

The hurricane that blows and throws you like a rag doll, 

I may randomly move around and miss but when I don't,

They shall taste the twisting vortex of the tornado,

Ripping and silencing out their cries into nevermore, 

No...that's not enough, a thunderstorm is needed to strike your soul.

Or perhaps I should be like the earth?

The quake that violently shakes your pride and foundation,

I may not grab you in the air but how long can you hold?

Forced to watch those around you crumble the young and old,

 Falling into the mouths of tremors collecting tolls,

Even the haven you're in shall tremble into the black hole.

But in the end no matter how many times I envision it,

I just could not deliver my vengeful spirit,

and I choose not to,

For my perseverance and patience withholds me from self-destructing,

It's for the sake of my heart to be joyous and keen.

Letum

When I started this blog, I always have different drawings on my blog's header every five months or so. But however, I could't get anymore inspiration to draw some more. So that's why I decided to put up this piece of simple artwork 'Letum' which is the first thing you see in my blog.

Before I tell you my story of Letum, I've been taking a long break from blogging due to hectic school work. And I must thank whoever made this time table because my free week is connected to today's Labour Day, I finally got to rest a lot before I go back to Curtin ><

Anyway, this drawing is one of my earliest artwork for as long I can remember. I was first inspired by the rose drawing from Disney's Beauty and the Beast, it was on a story book that I had (I can't find it anymore), but bless Google so I can show you how it looks like in the first place.

Whoever drew it must be pretty emo too lol

I guess it was out of boredom that I decided to mirror it and I first drew a draft and it turned out like this.

Yeap, that's my secondary school name tag haha

And about the name, I did not have a name for it after it was complete. Actually I probably forgot what was the original name for it before Letum came along, maybe it was called Black Rose or something (so cliche). 

The name Letum in Latin means death, which was discovered by my bro and it totally suits my drawing's theme. But I only decided to use the name Letum on it like last year or the year before, before that I was using the name in my DotA days as my in-game nick, which was pretty badass and cool because it being a Latin word also totally suits that kind of ancient mythology environment too. 

The final draft

The design wasn't made in the first place, it didn't have any random white stripes all over it too, I decided to have it like that coz it looked like it has scratches on it. And I purposely drew the four corner pointy petals like that so it looks kinda devilish. And I also remembered that when I asked my friends what did they think about my drawing, one of them even said the flower looks like there's a person trapped in the middle which wasn't my intention, but still cool and interesting that different people have different views on it. One thing I like about it is that the name can be applied to both male and female (though I think it suits better for a female's persona), so I've been using the name Letum a lot recently in my games again especially in my pokemon games on a female character (lol).

Oh I just remembered that my inspiration has actually made me draw two different kinds of flowers, Letum is the second design. So what about the first? Hmm...some other time.

Someday.

The Memorandum

Whatever reason you did that to her,

Is unforgivable and selfish, 

Everyone is wishing you will suffer,

Like getting dragged by the flames below,

Or get tortured in the abyss of hollow.

An idea of a remorseful punishment for eternity,

Is that her face will forever be in his memory, 

So it can haunt him as long as he breathes,

Even in his afterlife it shall not go un-seethe.

However keep this in mind my friends,

You must not hold dearly of this pain,

Move on and live so you won't meet the end,

I am a Christian so I should not condemn him,

And pray that God bless her soul and his sin...

...At least that's what I think she would want.

The Silencer...The Rage

So cold...I hated it,

I hated that he made those four frozen walls,

Even though he didn't really need it,

I sighed because he was still young afraid to fall,

But maybe one day he will need my help,

So I waited inside his frosted heart to melt.

So long...I held it,

I held all the red thoughts from his sounds of silence,

Stubborn about the mistakes you won’t admit,

Yet you always try to fit into the residence, 

Damn boy, don’t you see you’re fooling yourself?

Stop craving for attention you wannabe elf.

So lost...I felt it,

I felt that he was at his limit of the edge,

With hope crushed sinking in the pit,

I had to pull himself together over the ledge,

But even so, he still refused to acknowledge me,

So foolish! What is it that he still can't see? 

SoFool…he named it,

He said it was for GunBound but I think otherwise,

But then again he started to change bit by bit,

I guess he learned something from the thorns and lies,

Well what’s life without pain right?

Come to think about it…this room has become really white. 

So far…he’s living it,

For so long being the silencer roaming around,

With many thoughts of “I quit.”

He didn’t because I won’t back down,

Now redeemed and headstrong,

I can let go all of the rage and move on.