My Wish

Every year we all have new year resolutions and wishes,
You wish you will be a boss following the footsteps of your father,
He wishes that he will be a super hero when he grows up,
She wishes that she will be a famous actress or be a good mother,
Well...we wish all sort of stuff like winning a World Cup.

There are times that I wish I was a progamer, and it's true it will take forever to reach to the top level of the South Koreans' level. Unlike Malaysia, they are blessed with a gaming culture and facilities for their training, they have sponsors supporting their leagues and even the games are broad casted live on television where thousands of young screaming fans come and cheer for their heroes. If I have enough money, I would fly to there now at participate the 3rd and 4th season of Global StarCraft 2 League right now since I'm having my semester break. Heck knowing myself I would put all my blood sweat and tears to win, even if I lose at least I would put on a good show to entertain the crowd, representing Malaysia with pride and for the Swarm as SoFool.

There are times that I wish I was a rock star, I have always dreamed about being one because I love rock. In Malaysia, doing a music business is tough because of piracy is. Many look down on the profession thinking they are just hobbies and a waste of time, leaving out the rockers out living a hard life unable to have a good time with the fans like in Rock Am Ring. I have dreamed myself playing some of my favourite popular rock songs as if they were my own, having my own independent rock band because we don't want to be commercialized by the music label limiting what we want for our fans. We would sell our songs and albums through iTunes (or other similar programmes) and our website for any price that our fans want to pay, it worked really well for Radiohead so why not? We would interact and keep in touch with the fans to represent what they feel through the internet as a rock band who reach out to the troubled youths.

There are times that I wish I worked in Blizzard Entertainment, being a sc geek I can help the development team for the sc2 franchise's story and direction. I can help on how to make Zerg and Protoss concept and design badass as Terran's, I can tell them why making it into a trilogy with each race of their own product is a bad idea, because they should just go on with the usual three race linear story line with the new game play mechanic, and still go ahead with the trilogy which is an even awesome idea and gift for the fans. I can also help to promote e-Sports within South East Asia, starting in Singapore since there is already a Blizzard HQ there. Unfortunately in Malaysia, the majority don't see the potential and strength of the gaming industry and e-Sports, as it is a fact that the gaming industry earns more than the movie and music industry combined. I wish to be like Boxer who made e-Sports possible and a sc2 forum moderator who talks to the fans often as a proud Blizzard employee.

There are times that I wish I was a football player, I'm not talking about playing the big leagues like the Primiera La Liga, Italian Serie A or English Premier League, although it would be really sweet. I like football and played a lot of games with my friends during my high school years even if it mean skipping class. Although there are some nice love for the game in Malaysia, but nobody really watch the leagues because of the lack of audience since they suck, heck we even need an entire country just to face a football club. One of the things that I deeply regret not doing in my university years is declining Ralph's offer to join a football club, because I wanted to focus on my studies and save my family's car patrol cost being a cheap person that I am. If I didn't decline I would have a sport to play together with my friends instead of slowing losing contact with them, and most importantly I would continue my tradition and reputation terrorizing the right and left wing as the Speed Demon.

There are times that I wish I was a film maker, actually I'm considered one since that's what I do in my course. But I just don't have the equipments to do them because they are so freaking expensive, actually I wasn't really into film making until a few months ago when Mr Rama resigned, one of my regrets is not joining the filming competition with Curtin because chances like that don't come often. Pursuing a film making career in Malaysia is another problem because of piracy (tight budget) and its strict religious law, they want us to censor so many “inappropriate” things like kissing (gosh you pussies). Makoto Shinkai and Wong Fu Production are my main inspiration for film making, I want to make videos and create meanings to send a message with my camera (which I don't have), I will post them on my YouTube account and share all the crazy and funny stuff, mind blowing and sugoi (it's a Japanese thing when something awesomely meaningful moment happens) scenes with my brother for the people and especially my friends who don't know how to entertain themselves as ebiL Entertainment.

So here I am now stuck with my neck tied with a leash,
Unable to make them happen since it's obviously beyond my reach,
I know that I'm possibly not alone and the only one who's like this,
I also know I'm not suppose to be a loser giving up on my wish list.

But hey I'm fine being a gamer or a footballer with no fame,
Blizzard and the entertainment industry?
Heh they're just waiting for me you see,
So in the mean time I'll just be a fan and support them,
Because in a way they are representing me for what I am ^^