The Introvert

There was a song that I heard in 1998,

It sings "And I don't want the world to see me,

Cause I don't think that they'd understand,"

Didn't really get it cause I was just a kid,

So I let it slid and by the time I did,

I wondered if it was too late to deflate,

the state of past hate that I've eaten on the plates,

And to put off the weight that was on my shoulders,

What do you think, fate?

I think you may or may not know that I'm an introverted person,

It doesn't mean I don't enjoy the outdoors though but over the seasons,

I've always preferred indoors after a day's work before my energy worsens,

I'm soft spoken as well but I will fight for what I believe in with reason,

Idealistic I am, my imaginations can come to life if given enough conviction,

Illuminating my visions of poetries like this or fan-fictions are my addiction,

In other words, the term "once a dreamer, always a dreamer" is the definite depiction.

Nothing really stops me when I'm decisive and strong-willed, 

Never for personal gain so why would I destroy something I build?

Needless to say, I do exhaust myself heavily if the task is unfulfilled, 

Nursing myself back alone is necessary to recharge before my soul peels,

Never mind me for my sudden retreat, my focus and goal are still instilled, 

Nauseated? Naw, but just don't put me back in corporate again I'll be killed. 

Finding the one hasn't really been easy for me either, 

For I don't really fancy casual hook ups and being a faker,

"Freak." they thought, yes I'm perfectionistic picky chooser, 

Forgive me for preferring a bond made of sincerity that endeavors, 

Facades and faults, I will embrace them openly and be your lover,      

Forget the feelings, it's the little moments that we should live for forever, 

Fall into my arms and let me fathom at your eyes as if they're made of amber. 

Just in case you've wondered why I don't talk much, 

Justifying who I am to you is not something I'd rush, 

Joining your small talks won't do, I'd just feel out of touch, 

Jazz Festival ain't my jam too, I'm sorry it just isn't my buzz, 

Jewelries are deceptive tools, I don't really care for such 'lux', 

Jealousy is not what I'd try to fool, it's too dangerous for us, 

Jolt me too much with your rules, that'll be the end of my trust.

Am I complicating myself too much? Perhaps I am, 

We make less than 1% of the population, like infinity gems, 

We are among the crowd, but aren't like the rest of them, 

But if you happen to be the lamp that fits our compatibility,

In time, you'll see what lies beneath the skin of me,

And it's not that so you'd get to understand my personality, 

It's because I'm looking for someone to grow in tandem,

Everyone needs a supporter from behind, loyal unlike Gollum, 

I can be your diplomat, I listen deeply with great warmth,

I can be your advocate, encouraging your growth to go forth,

It's the sort of friendship that transcends time over any oath. 

I still don't want the world to see me though,

Cause I don't need daily attention or to show, 

But I'm gonna be around just so you know, 

Whenever you need me, I'll be there for you high and low.