The Better You

As the new year approaches, 

We get excited making new year resolutions,

But after a period we then lose our execution, 

Why is this? Are we in a devolution?

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity. 

To seize everything you ever wanted, one moment. 

Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?

Time waits for no one as proven in this year's tragedies, 

like a thief in the night it can strike when you're not ready,

So don't wait for another day and put it on the line, 

Not doing anything productive is a crime, 

For everyone is given the same amount of time.

A new year is indeed a new start, 

But you're mistaken if it also means a new you, 

Instead, be a better you, 

Because you will always be better than yesterday's you, 

You can if your heart and mind wants to,

We can't reload our save point to start anew, 

A new you is a silly phrase and it's not the answer, 

Since we are already here why not be better?

My friends, we all have gone through our ups and downs. 

And it's in our human nature we tend to remember the bad more, 

Which explains why we can't seem to get up from the ground, 

My friends, we fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up from the floor.

Yes the world is cruel, 

But that does not mean we should let it rule,

So don't let yourself down too much, 

We are not alone in this, yes you and me, 

2014 will soon be just another memory, 

So be brave and bold, 

Not cowardly and cold,

In a few more hours, 

Tonight's the night the world begins again and better days will come. 

And it starts with you, a better you.

Happy New Year :)

The Jar

They say a heart is the size of our fist,

But an adult's one is as twice as that,

So what does that have to do with this?

They say this is a calming glitter jar,

Used for all ages, it soothes one's troubling thoughts,

You can start off by shaking it with a rawr.

Can you see it? The glitters are flowing of stars,

Altogether making it look like swirling galaxies,

It might help too if you have the song "Chasing Cars".

I know you will eventually be alright,

But I don't want you to fight it alone,

Hence the jar, so that "I" can be with you through the night.

This jar also represents my heart, 

Keep it safe and one day I'll show you the stardust above,

And like the stardusts above, hope we will never be apart.

The Commencement

So here I am at midnight,

Trying to think of what to write,

Actually I was suppose to do this hours ago,

But procrastination got the best of me,

And every second passing is making me sleepy.

So...congrats for graduating!

Isn't it one of the best feelings?

No more classes and plenty of rest,

But life isn't done giving you tests.

What does the future hold?

No one is certain for sure,

But it's either you sit back or be bold,

Coz there's a diff between a woman and a girl.

Don't be anxious about the future too much,

Even the most interesting people that I know,

Who are in their 60's still don't know,

Even though they have all the money,

Time got cruel to their knees,

And then succumbed into mid life crisis, scary.

I don't think I'm in the position,

To tell you what you should do about your life,

Because it's your life,

You're the director, the script writer, and the actor,

(or actress in you're a girl lol)

And I'm merely just a fan in the audience,

But I won't mind being your guidance,

Share I will with my working experience.

The race is a long winding road,

And it's not really about the end or the start,

It's the journey,

Sure there's no save point to reload,

A perfect alibi to protect your heart,

Though is that necessary?

Cause you know as the saying goes,

There's no gain without pain.

I guess that's enough from me,

I should really go to sleep,

Consider this as your graduation gift,

Not sure if it can give you a lift,

But I hope it's something you can keep,

Who knows? One day you'd be able to take the leap.

The Untitled Carol

Part 1

"Goodnight dearest." she said as she lay beside me,

Light switched off with my eyes just staring at the black ceiling, 

Time sure flies when insomnia's singing,

And by the time my eyes are finally closing,

My little baby girl started crying,

I looked at her and she was sleeping so peacefully,

I then got up and went to check on my little darling.

As the shadows fell back in the morning,

I went downstairs to have my breakfast,

And there she was in the kitchen preparing,

Dancing to a song playing on the radio,

The babysitter came early too and I let her in,

"Good morning! How is my little pudding~",

She excitedly passed by her and I,

And I resumed back on my cup sipping.

"Did you sleep well honey? <3" she asked,

I didn't reply as I was still chewing,

"She grows up fast doesn't she?

Sigh~ by the time you know it,

first baby steps…first baby words, bit by bit,

then all of a sudden, she learns to shout,

or she might become a girl scout,

and bam she's moving out,

you know…I hope that she'll-"

"Shut up."

…

I then walked out of the house and into the car,
Realizing I'm losing of what's fantasy and real,
This illusion of progress is all I can feel,  

For her presence lingers beneath my skin still,

From my rear-view mirror, clearly I can see her,
Smiling and waving, I wish I could do the same to you too girl,
But I can't anymore…for you are no longer part of this world.


Part II

"Where am I now?" I looked around and saw my employees,
"Oh right…now is a meeting." I snapped back to reality,
"Good morning, everyone! I can't wait to let you all see,
of our new theme for our next product line which is key!"
said Pride.
 As he proudly presented his presentation,
Seven colored rings were shown on the slides,
"We are targeting the young and happening market segment,
As you can see these fancy rings, 
They are following the colours of the rainbow!
With each name based on the seven deadly sins,
Don't worry, we're not naming them like the anger ring,
But it does sound opulent in Latin!" 

"Ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha.ha…"
Fake laughters, fake laughters everywhere.

"Alright, now let me introduce you the names."
He proceeded to pronounce the rings' name steadily,
"First, we have Superbia, Avaritia, Luxuria, Invidia, Gula, Ira 
and…finally," 
He took a deep breath before finishing proudly,
"...Acedia. Thank you."

Employees around then gave him an applause,
"So what do you think, boss?"
asked Pride, with the ovation on pause,

"It's stupid."

…

"Are we trying to sell to rebellious 16 year olds?"
The one with the deep pockets are aged 40 & above!
Did anyone do any research at all?!"

…

"This is a terrible idea for our Christmas promotion.
You can all forget your Christmas bonus." I continued.
"But but but, we all met our KPI's!" said Pride,
"And increment, now get-out."
With that, the atmosphere within the room died,
One by one, they all went to hide.

"Boss, I know you're having a very rough time lately,"
said Lust as she suddenly whispered near my ear,
"If there's anything I can do, call me maybe."
Before she went out of the door, she turned and smiled devilishly,
"Anything."

From my door, I can see Envy being envious of Lust.
I can tell beauty and glamour to her is a must,
On the other hand, Gluttony enslaved himself with junk food,
After such tense rant, I guess he just wanted to relieve his mood,
And Sloth slouching on his chair, can't tell if he's being lazy or subdued.

"I need to get out of here." I sank down on my chair,
Feeling myself gasping for air in this nightmare,
I looked around on my desk and saw a picture,
It was a picture of you on a swing that I took in that park,

Without any second thought, I got up quickly and left this box-shaped cark,
Before I get myself consumed and confused again by the dark.

Parthree

Do you remember, smiling one?
This was the very same spot where I took the pic for fun,
Because you were being like a kid on that swing,
   And didn't want to go back home that evening,
To even push that empty swing to replicate the moment,
I knew at that point I was on the edge of being broken,
So I went to lie down on a seesaw nearby,
Just to keep the waterfalls from flowing out of my eyes.

After some time, I wondered why the swing hasn't stopped yet,
I looked behind and surprised to see a kid on it,
So I got up on my feet and asked the kid,
"Hey kid, you're alone? Your mom's gonna be worried."
"I don't have a mom." she said without feeling harried.

…

For some reason, I had a short flashback of how she passed away.
Due to an unfortunate car accident, back in last May.

…

"She died years ago."
"Well, I'm sure your dad must be wondering where you are."
"My dad doesn't know and doesn't care, so don't worry.
He's never at home and when he is…he's always angry.
I don't like to be home, everything is amiss.
Why did it become like this,
…why do I even exist?"

…

Where am I now?
"So have you decided on her name?"
Yes, that's right…it was before my love gave birth then,
It was a bit eerie looking at myself with her and bam,
It was time for the little one to come out and man,
Never felt so excited and anxious at the same time.

Every second felt like a millennia in the hospital,
Whispering small prayers for her delivery success,
Little by little it helped me to calm down my stress,
"Mister-"
"How's she?!" I interrupted him before he could finish calling,
"The baby girl's fine and your wife's stabilizing.
Congratulations!"

Yes, that's right…now I remember,
For He knows the plans He has for me,
Plans to prosper me and not to harm me,
Plans to give me hope and a future.
That's the reason of her existence,
That should be my reason to go to the distance.

…

"So, are you now ready to let me go?"
I wanted to say no but I know I had enough so,
Without saying anything at all,
I smiled and just looked at her on that swing again,
To appreciate the moment that was coming to end,
And like in the movies, she spirited away with the wind,
Her voice also no longer lingers beneath my skin.

Inevitably, I will and still miss her,
Even so I'm still blessed with my little girl,
Like your mother and Him, you're as precious as a pearl,
Kerrigan, you too can bring faith, hope and love to the world.

Merry Christmas =)

The Unknown

Evening my friends and family, why art thou still up at this late hour?

Since Halloween is still young, why not stay awhile and listen,

For I have a short tale to tell, don't worry it's not violent nor vulgar, 

Certainly no goosebumps while you read and getting your heart frozen.

It was night time then, I was in the backseat with my parents driving,

On the way to the church, cruising along the familiar Pujut neighbourhood,

And as usual, out of the window passing by the houses day dreaming, 

Keeping my mind to myself, peace and quiet it was all good.

Until a few seconds later…I had a sudden realization. 

Of what I saw a few seconds ago, causing some confusion.

Rewinding the images I had in my mind, even though it was for a split second, 

I still remember it vividly, something kinda weird I reckoned,

The house was kinda dark with the patio orange lights on half dimmed. 

Under the shelter, was a car. And beside the car was something grim. 

A woman in white,

Typical, isn't that right?

The woman was standing beside the car, facing the door, 

She had long black hair, all the way over her shoulders,

And all she did was just standing there on the floor,

Don't know what for, nor does her body looked sore,

But one thing for sure, she was as still as a royal soldier. 

"Ok…so that may be creepy but,

what's so scary about that?

It's not like she suddenly chased you like a swarm of gnats,

or like from that car scene from Shutter what." 

Indeed she didn't my friends, that'd be terrifying!

But remember that I said her hair was lengthly?

It was pretty long that I couldn't tell which way she was facing,

So that being said, that's really eerie if you ask me.

But then again it was dark and the car was moving fast,

Passing by that house within a second that didn't even last, 

It could have something else, like the only hanging pillow sheet,

Or a woman's white pajamas together with a black fluffy pleat,

Whether or not if it was just my scumbag brain playing tricks or treat,

Whatever it was I saw on that night at the backseat,

It kinda creeps me out every time I think about it.

So…yeah that's all of my bedtime halloween story bodyevery,

Happy Halloween :3